My lack of long-term planning.

I’m lacking in strategic planning beyond, say, a couple of hours and sometimes it’s even shorter than that. Take, for example, a workout at the gym. If I’m just there on my own, I’ll be lazy and not push myself very hard. I probably won’t even breathe hard for more than a minute. But if there’s someone next to me who is just ahead of me, I’ll push myself hard enough to try to get ahead. Way too far ahead and I’m back to slacking. I do this even when my back hurts and I should be taking it easy. I suppose “easy” is relative, and there’s no reason not to try.

Or look at what I’ve been doing this evening. I was tired at work today, though I’m feeling much better. I should have just gone to sleep early. Instead, I was online looking for a work email from a customer (it never arrived) and messaging friends. One told me that the woman who he was trying to fix me up with was getting desperate, but not desperate enough to go out with me. So I decided to finish my bottle of “Nikka Whisky, Matured in wood and blended by our own experts in Tokyo, Osaka, Hokkaido, and Sendai, Japan.” Yeah, probably PLYwood.

In any case, I can’t remember my point. However, my new short-term goal of sleep is probably in keeping with a longer-term goal of keeping my job by staying awake during the day. I figure you just have to do whatever you think is right, and sometimes it works out in your favor. That’s the nature of life.